I have tried, really tried!

I am 50 years old now.
I have tried since i was young to make my relationship with my mum better.
I am one of three sisters and have always felt unloved by her.

I married my first boy friend and had one child.
When i was married, my mum would only ask one of us every year for Christmas.
It was never a family.
We never got close to one another as she would always talk about one of us behind the others back.
When I was a child I would believe it all mum said.

Now we dont talk or have any contact with one another as sisters.

What really hurts me is this.
I now have one daughter and now my daughter is acting the same like my mum.
My daughter is talking behind my back!
I love her and cant believe she would act the same like my mum!

I feel i have no family or daughter.
Sometimes i just want to end my life as i have nothing but hurt from them.
All its so lonely!!!
I have tried so hard to have a family.