IM READY 2 SCREAM
by Mckayla
(Atlanta, US)
I'M READY 2 SCREAM
My name is Mckayla and I and my mom are not getting along. I’m from New York City and when we were there we didn’t have any problems but now we relocated to Atlanta my mother and I are bumping heads.
We don’t get along anymore. Before we used to be best friends but now it seems like we are enemies. Everyone always wonder why I walk around with my face looking sad or mad: it’s because I’m tired of her.
She asks me “whats your problem?” Really want to say “mom YOU are my problem!”
But that would be disrespectful. I know I’m wrong sometimes and I know she is wrong sometimes too.
I think that if I really tried to talk to her she wouldn’t listen.
One day I wanted my hair done and I think my mother was having a rough day at work but at the time I wasn’t aware so I asked her can she do my hair.
She started screaming at me..
These were her exact words: “leave me alone you are always coming at me with multi things!!!”
I could understand that, but she didn’t have to say it in that tone.
Inside I was crushed.so I was getting tired of everything me and her were arguing about, I mean for about 3 months straight me and her argued everyday and I was tired of it so I yelled out “ma im tired of you!!!”
She chased me up the stairs like she was going to kill me she ran up the stairs with force I ran in the room and closed the door she ran behind me and tried to come in.. she finally got in the room.. so I ran out and then I ran in my room locked the door and fell slowly crying.
My aunt came up the stairs and told me to come to her room and talk 2 her.
I was so shaky about what just took place so I just wanted to lay down and not be bothered.. even inside i knew that my mother wasn’t hurting because when she finally came out her room she had a nasty look on her face that said she didn’t give a f@%& about what happened
Ever since that day I looked at my mother as a monster.
How could I forgive her?
People always say forgive and forget but I couldn’t forgive her and I know I couldn’t forget and I just feel like I need to sit down and yell curse scream shout everything so she can see how I feel.
Every single time I think about this day I cry because it was like a scene from a movie when a mother and a daughter is arguing.
But now I feel like I don’t have feelings I feel like I can’t cry no more because all my tears are gone.
My mother won’t change and I know that I just want her to leave me alone. My mother is not the same she used to be when we were in New York.
Atlanta has changed her into a monster... I made up a poem for her and if she is reading this I hope she will realize we are over !
MY POEM
i feel like screaming
pushing and fighing
cause inside i know im dying
i cant take it no more
how bout i just walk out the door
because me and you are not working
we cant talk
we cant hang
listen to me dang
because you dont know what im feeling
so now we are done
you cant hise you cant run
because mother and daughter is over
