PAIN

by SHUBDA
(INDIA)

My daughter and I have a troubled relationship.
I just can’t please her in any way.
Oh, she loves me all right, but doesn’t express it.
And does not like me to express it either.

I attribute it to my disturbed relationship with my husband in the initial years of my married life.
I accept I went up all my frustration on my poor child.
But over years, I realised my mistake and since then since the last 8 years, I have been trying and trying to win her affection, but in vain.

As long as I speak less to her, she is all smiles.
But the moment I tell her something simple, she flares up and swears and hates me.

Does this mean I shouldn’t talk to her at all?
I don’t understand.
I am in pain but I will keep quiet for her sake, because I love her too much.

My husband keeps quiet about all this . He is of no help.

I know I have to bear this pain as long as I am alive.
SHUBDA.